An education in science has a way of making you believe that any complex problem could be broken down and understood in light of the laws that govern the universe.
Funnily though, I took my love for laws and simplification beyond the classroom walls. As I grew, I assimilated the vagaries of existence - death, life, tears and laughter and tried to make sense of it all.
Why are some born poor ? What did that lovely woman do to deserve this death ? Why should the innocent babies born in war ravaged Syria suffer? - there must be some law that dictated their fated I thought. I searched my way with self-help and spiritual talks that professed to know the deeper truths of existence. I went nihilistic for a while and thought that life was like the toss of a die, a random process that we cannot find closure in.
They say suffering moved the Buddha to self awakening. Suffering pushed me beyond the comfort of my rational, unilateral mind. As I'm beginning to understand, life is beyond any law. It's an all enveloping, organic and unfathomable force that overrides human comprehension. Its not God, its not the lack of God. Its as majestic as the mountains and the oceans of this Earth, none of which I've been able to withhold in its entirety.
On the path to realisation, Meera.
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